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New Work in Progress ‘Don’t Stop, Keep Going’

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Don’t Stop, Keep Going (2016-) work in progress, side 1, Joy C Martindale

 I can’t think straight – I’m losing it – My head is going to fall off – I can’t do this – I must do this – I’m a lousy mother – I’m tired – I feel dizzy – I need to be quiet – I can’t keep talking, talking, talking – I, I, I. Too many I’s – Not enough I. I have to stop – Just for a bit – Get it together – Let everything stop moving – whirling inside me. 

How do I help myself get through this?

Whilst making “Don’t Stop, Keep Going”, I have been reflecting on a serious and hard to admit to issue: the tightrope one can feel one is walking as a mother of young children; when exhaustion, sleep deprivation and the need for a break – however short – becomes overwhelming and abnormal notions begin to infiltrate – self doubts and idiotic thoughts that you wouldn’t be having if you could just get a bit more sleep and have a little time alone.

When my children first started school the exhaustion persisted and everything continued to feel like a crazy juggling act. I noticed that when I was very tired I could still work but that my approach was different – it was very much a case of head down and working obsessively on small singular tasks. At first I thought this might be a problem but then, with this piece, I decided to work with it and channel those sensations of the mind and body short-circuiting, which were countered by the self-will to persevere, into the work.

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New Work ‘Before and After the Trial’

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Before and After the Trial (2017) Joy C Martindale

It begins light and flimsy – a small, broken piece of nylon fishing net – but becomes dense and weighty. With each stitch and mark, with each piece of cloth that I wrap around it I feel myself grow calmer. I stay with the work; I anchor myself to it and by doing so I resist the impulse to run. A cloud shape begins to suggest itself, perhaps only I can see it. My son likens the emerging form to a butterfly. But really the work is only itself. I think it is becoming strong enough to take all my feelings. Bits of it are flawed, frayed, damaged, dirty. I keep going, binding it up as one would a bandage and stitching, stitching, stitching. Catharsis comes through repetition until the moment arrives when it can hold itself together.

 And then, after the trial, I return to it again. I am a new person – stronger, more determined –there is more work to do. It is not finished yet.

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Made In Plymouth Magazine

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Portrait of the Artist, Joy C Martindale (2017) by Danny Burrows

I am pleased to announce that Made In Plymouth magazine have published my new article: The Burden of My Anxieties.

Read it here: http://madeinplymouth.co.uk/project/the-burden-of-my-anxieties/ 

The article proposes that the suffering women feel when in crisis is a commonly shared experience and it considers the role of GP care, in particular the work of the Beacon Medical Practice in Plymouth, in supporting women’s mental, physical and emotional wellbeing.

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CRIT 12

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Portrait of Joy C Martindale, 15/06/2017, by Danny Burrows

On 15th June, I was delighted to be given the opportunity to present the first installment of a new work-in-progress ‘Before and After the Trial‘ to fellow artists Clare Blanca, Faye Golley, Marin Karakaya, Admire Ncube and Philippa Wall  at Crit 12 at Performance Space in Folkestone, Kent.

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