Don’t Stop, Keep Going was selected for Wells Art Contemporary, a leading open exhibition for international contemporary art.
I can’t think straight – I’m losing it – my head is going to fall off – I can’t do this – I must do this – I’m a lousy mother – I’m tired – I feel dizzy – I need to be quiet – I can’t keep talking, talking, talking – I, I, I. Too many I’s – not enough I. I have to stop –just for a bit – get it together – let everything stop moving – whirling inside me.
How do I help myself get through this?
Whilst making “Don’t Stop, Keep Going”, I reflected on a serious and hard to admit to issue- the tightrope one can feel one is walking as a mother of young children, when exhaustion, sleep deprivation and the need for a break, however short, becomes overwhelming. That’s when abnormal notions begin to infiltrate – self doubts and idiotic thoughts that you wouldn’t be having if you could just get a bit more sleep and have a little time alone.
When my children first started school the exhaustion persisted and everything continued to feel like a crazy juggling act. I noticed that when I was very tired I could still work but that my approach was different – it was very much a case of head down and working obsessively on small, singular tasks. At first I thought this might be a problem but then, with this piece, I decided to work with it and channel those sensations of the mind and body short-circuiting, which were countered by the will to persevere, into the work.